It’s Only a Dream

I saw you again last night. I know it was only a dream, but I really wish that it would have been real. Then I would not have to feel pain when I wake up in the morning. I would not have to remember that day. I would have you to call when I want to talk about boys, and I would be able to get your advice on finals.

I did not want to wake up today because I wanted to hold your hand for a little longer and tell you about all of the things going on in my life. I did not want to wake up because I would have to say farewell again and once was truly enough to last a lifetime. I never thought that my life would be the way it is now. In fact if someone told me this is how it would all go down four years ago I would have told them they were crazy.

It’s only a dream you smiling at me and wishing that you did not have to go.  I know this to be true because I saw your coffin. I know this to be true because I grieved for you and I still do. I know it’s a dream but how I wish I did not have to wake up.